The House of Secrets

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Hampstead London – November 7th 1890

They found her body on the pavement, at the foot of Rosslyn Hill. She had been dead for just half an hour. The head had been almost severed from the body, and there were several deep holes at the back of the skull, which showed the ferocity with which she had been attacked. The woman was dressed tidily, though one of her shoes was missing. The police say she had the appearance of a domestic servant. There was no doubt that her death was caused by the blows to the skull. She was the third woman in three weeks to be murdered in the area.

‘There’s been another murder out there.’ Said Phoebe, closing the wooden hatch behind her. She was breathing heavily.

Gus hurried across the stone floor and sat in front of her. ‘How many more will there be before they catch him? You…

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Rear Window

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I could see him standing at the table with a knife in his hand; he had rubber gloves on and was cutting something. He appeared uneasy as he went about his work.

“Who are on earth are you spying on now?”

I turned quickly, and the cord of the binoculars tightened round my neck like a noose.

“God! Do you have to creep up on me like that?”

The Blonde stood in front of me, looking out of the window. “You’re turning into a peeping Tony. Why are you behaving like a stalker?  Haven’t we had enough stalkers in the family lately?

“Are you referring to my mother?”

“You know exactly who I mean.”

“I’m not stalking; I was watching the cat, to see if I could find out where she goes at night. Then I saw this guy in his kitchen cutting up something on the table.”

“Which guy?

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Of Mice and Men

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The storm raged for five days and five nights. The sun came out each morning, and by noon it was gone; replaced by a dark and turbulent sea that crashed relentlessly against the ship.

On the sixth day, the storm subsided. I ventured out on deck and watched a dove appear and circle the ship. I saw it swoop and soar, then fly west towards the setting sun. There was no sight of land and darkness once again engulfed the ship.

On the morning of the seventh day, Captain Murdock appeared on deck to address his weary crew.

“The storm has led us into uncharted waters” He boomed. “We are alone on this ocean, and must gather all our strength in a bid to find our way home….”

The bolt of lightning came out of the heavens and hit the mainsail. I heard the mighty crack as it began to fall. I…

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The Autograph Collector

She never intended to harm him, she just wanted to meet him again. She was convinced they had made a connection – but this time she wanted more than just an autograph.

December 11th 2001 – Hollywood

Helen’s room was always dark.

She had kept the curtains closed since the day her mother died.

She no longer trusted the outside world.

He smiles out from a collage of photos captured by the paparazzi. He is climbing out of a car. Waving from the deck of a yacht. His distinctive smile trapped in a thousand images frozen in time. She kneels on the floor naked, rocking gently on her heels. She smiles back at him conspiringly. She is happy in her dark shrine, her mind shifting between visions of her mother, and him. Sometimes the visions fuse, and she fights to keep them apart. He lies next to her, his head on the pillow, his hands in her hair. She pretends to resist as he holds her down, one arm across her neck. She lets him to do whatever he wants, and never questions her sense of reason. She simply believes her obsession is born of passion.

They first met in the flower shop where she worked in Beverly Hills. It was three months ago to the day. It was early morning, before they had heard the terrible news. Their eyes met at the same instant, Helen glancing up from a box she was opening, and him, just turning his head, so he looked directly at her. He smiled, and explained the flowers were for his mother. His eyes were colourless, yet dominant like light or fire. Helen could not look away, she remained transfixed. She felt ashamed of her appearance, her old blue skirt and the humiliating flat shoes.

He appeared smaller than he did on-screen, and his hair flopped over his forehead. He smiled at her, tilting his head, then asked if the flowers could be gift-wrapped. His security guard pushed a credit card into her hand. A small crowd was beginning to form outside the shop, and she felt a wave of panic engulf her. She nodded and tried to smile, but somehow her face remained impassive. She could feel the warmth of his stare as she fumbled with the wrapping but could not look up. When she had finished, he took the flowers from her, and there followed a moment of silence as she finally found the courage to meet his gaze. In that moment, time stood still, and a new world was born around her, like a bright forest with a million shimmering leaves.

She took a shower and then fussed with her hair. This time, she thought, I am going to wear something that pleases him. She knew the sort of woman he preferred, she had seen the photographs. She chose the black silk dress she had worn for her mother’s funeral, and teamed it with the pearls bought from Nordstrom. She gazed at her reflection in the full-length mirror and tucked a strand of hair behind her ear. She climbed the stairs to her mother’s room and stared at the solid oak door which could only be locked from the outside. She smiled to herself as she slowly caressed the wood, and then opened the top draw of the bedside cabinet and took out the gun. It was a Ruger 380 Automatic, just small enough to fit into her purse.

She walked north on Wilcox and took a right on Sunset Boulevard. She glanced up at the ArcLight cinema and saw his face staring down from the billboard, crowding out her sky. The sun was warm for December, and she felt a shiver run down her spine as if her heart were about to burst.

The bar was already dark and lit by small candles. She took a stool and ordered a Jack Daniels and coke. The television was on mute as she watched the grim face of President Bush at a memorial ceremony in Washington. She read his words on the screen.

We’ll remember where we were and how we felt. We will remember the dead and what we owe them. We will remember what we lost and what we found. Every death extinguished a world.”

She began to feel her second drink and recalled the place her mother had sent her when she was little. They called it an orphanage, yet it was merely a halfway house. A place where children waited for their parents to collect them – like left luggage. She never knew her father, and her mother was already famous, making movies. The star who didn’t want the world to know she had a child, in case it hampered her career. Helen had spent the morning downstairs, waiting in the playroom, listening for her mother’s footsteps on the lino. She listened for the sound of her voice, the hint of perfume, anything that was part of her. The hours slipped by as she sensed her childhood recede. Her mother never showed, and in the end she came to represent nothing more to Helen than a ghostly face in the corner of her past, shrouded in mist and misery. She desperately needed to assuage the hollow feelings of rejection. The last time she saw her mother she was running through the woods, towards the lake. The sun was going down and the sky was a roasted pink hue and she could smell her on the wind. Like the scent of death.

She asked the bartender to call her a cab. In the back of the car she tidied her hair and clutched her purse to her chest. There was a change in her, a definite shift. She did not feel angry anymore. She felt the need for justice, and for some form of closure on the past. She wanted to forgive, but not forget. The driver let her out at the top of Beechwood Drive. The sun was starting to set and she sensed the closeness of his house. She knew how to approach the grounds from the rear. She shivered, and walked quickly not bothering to look behind her. She failed to notice the tiny camera in the tree that tracked her progress. She squeezed through a gap in the bushes and made her way up the lawn as the darkening sky provided refuge from prying eyes. She glimpsed a shadow in the pool house and moved quickly into the trees. She had hardly reached the trees when the pool house door opened, and steps sounded on the black marble tiles. She watched him as he knelt by the pool. A burst of light lit up his face, and he stood and stared down at the light with absent fascination. Perhaps thirty feet separated them. Suddenly he lifted his eyes, his lips parted and he was looking directly at her.

‘How do you like my garden Helen?’ He framed the question as if he actually knew her. She felt the tears come into her eyes and struggled to compose herself.  She gripped her purse, conscious of the weight of the gun. She wasn’t sure if he had really spoken her name. In an involuntary gesture of surrender and apology, she raised an arm and started towards him. She felt she had to throw herself at his mercy. She spoke softly. ‘I wanted to see the gardens. So much has changed since I last saw you. I hope I didn’t startle you.’

He smiled and looked directly into her soul. He began to walk towards her as he spoke.

‘The whole world has changed Helen. Now we tend to think about our mortality. What happened in September was us witnessing the world spiralling out of control. Have you seen my new movie? That’s the premise, mortality. You should see it. I’m rather good in it. I would be proud if it were my last movie. My last testament. There has to be an end to everything. And you Helen, why are you here tonight? Your mother died on 9/11 didn’t she? I read about it. I saw you on the television. I remember you on that morning, fussing with the flowers. Scrutinising me. Why did you come here tonight? Do you imagine that because we met on the morning of that dreadful day we developed some form of unique bond, that we are somehow inextricably linked by fate? You may well be right.’

They were standing side by side and Helen searched his face. She sensed a sudden threat. He placed his hand on the small of her back and guided her towards the house. He walked slowly as he talked. ‘Let me show you the house. Did you know it once belonged to Charlie Chaplin? Yes, he built it. It was a magnificent gothic mansion in those days but he allowed it to fall into disrepair. He had no money left. Robert Downey Jnr tried to buy it but I got there first. So it fell to me to save this house from ruin. I bought it from a writer called Norris Nutley. He died here sadly, and the gardens had not been touched for years. There was a lot of work. I had to cut everything back and re-plant. In the end I gave it a new life, a new beginning. These Jacarandas are the only surviving trees.’

She looked up at his face, and although she didn’t want to, she smiled at him and nodded.

He stopped abruptly and faced her. ‘You must be cold. Come and sit by the fire pits.’ She followed him onto the wide open terrace that overlooked the pool. She could see into the house. It was stark and angular. Black and white, with art deco mirrors adorning the walls. She felt as if she already knew the place and somehow belonged there. She had set out with a plan and allowed herself to be drawn in by him. She was struggling to maintain control. He was standing just inside, beside a small drinks bar.

‘He raised his voice a little. ‘Would you like to drink some wine?

She looked up and saw only his shadow. ‘Yes…Thank you.’

It was almost dark as he placed the drinks on the small table. He sat close to her and she searched his face for clues. She was biding her time. Gauging his mood. He appeared confident and in control – acting as if he knew her intimately. He took a cigarette from a silver case on the table and lit it, staring straight ahead towards the pool.

‘Why did you come here?’

Helen glanced down nervously at her purse and struggled to focus. Why not now? She thought. Why not do it now? She looked up slowly and smiled at him. ‘I just wanted to see you. To see how you felt. I was curious, I suppose.’

The sky was now an inky black, the air filled with a chorus of cicadas. He reached over and rested a hand on her arm. His face was so close she could smell his skin, and she struggled to hold his gaze. She felt balanced on a thin edge. The decision suspended in thin air. There was a deadness in the silence between them, and Helen grew more uneasy. She looked in his face, smiling. To Helen it was perfect, she just wanted to be there, in his house with him. She felt as if she suddenly existed. They sat facing each other waiting on the moment, unaware they were both concealing their true intentions. In the silence that followed he refilled their glasses. He stubbed out his cigarette. He was staring at her now, anticipating her next move. Waiting for her to speak. Then, out of nowhere, a cat sprung up and onto her lap, knocking her purse to the floor with a dull thud. He stood, and began to laugh. ‘I see you have met Bozley. He came with the house. He has this gift of knowing who likes him, he seems to have made his mind up about you.’ He reached down slowly for the purse and held it out towards her. The cat coiled around and then settled on her lap. The pale yellow eyes stared up at her knowingly, as if conveying a warning.

He placed the purse on the table between them, so they could both see it. He moved closer and gently stroked her face.

‘You used to collect autographs didn’t you Helen?’

‘No…but my mother did. She became obsessed with you in the end. I think you know that.’

She studied his face. It was serious now.

‘Do you collect anything?’ She asked.

He smiled menacingly…

‘Only fans.’

Somewhere in her head she heard a door slam, and the sound of a key being turned in the lock. She was overcome with a feeling of sickness, and at the same time a sense of calm surrender engulfed her body. It was too late to fight, and she succumbed to the darkness. The last thing she remembered he was cradling her in his arms, carrying her down the steps towards the cellar. She could smell a dampness in the air. The last thing she saw was him holding up her empty purse to the sky and she opened her mouth to scream.

The House of Secrets

Hampstead London – November 7th 1890

They found her body on the pavement, at the foot of Rosslyn Hill. She had been dead for just half an hour. The head had been almost severed from the body, and there were several deep holes at the back of the skull, which showed the ferocity with which she had been attacked. The woman was dressed tidily, though one of her shoes was missing. The police say she had the appearance of a domestic servant. There was no doubt that her death was caused by the blows to the skull. She was the third woman in three weeks to be murdered in the area.

‘There’s been another murder out there.’ Said Phoebe, closing the wooden hatch behind her. She was breathing heavily. Gus hurried across the stone floor and sat in front of her. ‘How many more will there be before they catch him? You are not to go out Phoebe, not even to the dustbins. It’s too dangerous.’

‘For god’s sake Gus we have to eat, otherwise we will all die down here. I have to wake the little ones; they need food and what do we have?…..’

‘But he’s got plenty of food upstairs.’ Gus called after her. ‘If only we could live like we did in the old days. When he shared all the food…’

He gazed at the cobwebs as they swayed gently from the rafters. The walls oozed with moisture, and the stench of lime scale and rotting wood pervaded the air. He stared down at the small scraps of stale bread on the table. Life, he thought, was an endless search for food. If only we could get rid of him upstairs. He quickly checked nobody was looking, then snatched a chunk of bread from the table and almost swallowed it whole.

Mr Barbauld had lived upstairs for two years. He much preferred it to his old house in Whitechapel. He had a slim figure, and a wide chiselled face, with a crease in either cheek. His voice was his most treasured possession.  Every morning, just after 9am, he would sit at the grand piano, and begin to play. There was no doubt that Mr Barbauld was a beautiful singer. His voice would soar, and his tenor would touch your heart as gently as his fingers graced the keys. Quite often, if the windows were open, a small crowd would gather on the street below. Occasionally, when he had ceased playing, he would stand at the window and wave to the crowd.  Mr Barbauld was already a famous figure; and soon to make a gramophone recording. Mr Barbauld was a celebrity, and was determined to leave an indelible mark on the world.

In the cellar, Phoebe reached down into the straw bed and gently shook it. Jaq opened his eyes and smiled at his mother. ‘I can hear Mr Barbauld singing Mummy.’ ‘Yes’ sighed Phoebe. ‘The whole world can hear Mr Barbauld singing. Now come and eat your breakfast.’ ‘Mummy, when I grow up, I want to sing like Mr Barbauld.’ Said Octavius, pushing passed his brother. ‘I want to be famous and own a big house so we can live upstairs.’ Phoebe gently stroked his head. ‘The likes of us don’t live upstairs Octavius. We live downstairs as we always have. Our family has lived in this house for generations.’ ‘

But Mummy, it’s so cold down here. Can’t we move upstairs?’

Phoebe felt the need to assuage her offspring:  ‘You have to understand child, we are the lucky ones. I have seen those who live down by the river – amongst the filth and disease. We live in a house on Rosslyn Hill, and for that we should be grateful.’ Jaq leapt from his bed and ran to Phoebe, tugging at her leg. ‘Mummy, I saw an angel in my dream last night, and she told me there were too many ladies in heaven who shouldn’t be there.’ Phoebe stared down at her youngest and gently stroked his head. She gazed up at the faint light that was edging through the ceiling. The singing had stopped, and she heard the footsteps recede. She watched the dust motes dance around her head and suddenly felt a chill run through her body as she contemplated the future.

Over breakfast, she told Gus about Jaq’s’ dream. He stared at her, but did not respond, but she knew what he was thinking. She always knew what Gus was thinking. He had become moody and restless of late. Soon, she thought, it would be time to move on before their secret was discovered.

Later that night, an eerie silence descended on the cellar, the moon appeared large and scornful. Gus lay awake listening to the wind as it howled through the bowels of the house and shook the windows. He heard the screams upstairs, and Mr Barbauld’s voice appeared to echo and harmonize with the wind. He heard a woman’s voice cry out – it was sharp and anxious, as if questioning. Then the screaming stopped. A door slammed, and a calm settled on the house, as the wind whipped up a frenzy of dark whispers.

Phoebe lay in a deep sleep as Gus slipped quietly out of bed. He gently closed the door and crept towards the little one’s room. He stood listening for a moment, alert to every sound. At first, he could sense only silence, and the pounding of his own heart. As his eyes began to adjust to the light he saw Jaq, curled up in a ball. Octavious lay on his back, his feet sunk deep under the straw. They were breathing softly in their sleep, as if detached from the impending drama of the night.

Gus closed the bedroom door and began to climb the main staircase. He had not been upstairs for years, not since his mother had died up there, and soon after, Mr. Barbauld had brought the builders in and Gus had chosen to move down into the cellar; before the little ones were born. Gus knew intuitively that he should never go upstairs, yet something told him that tonight he must. He moved cautiously along the cold marble floors. At the end of the main hallway, he crept down the servant’s staircase and made his way to the scullery. The stale cooking smells made him hungry, and quickly led him to the flour sack that lay against the kitchen door. The top had been tied with string. Gus nudged the sack, then expertly bit his way through the knot. He tipped the sack, and it spilled out over the floor – and  beneath the potato peelings and the chicken bones, a woman’s shoe suddenly became visible.

A clock chimed somewhere in the night and he heard footsteps on the stairs.

He grabbed the shoe and ran into the pantry, squeezing himself under a shelf.  He lay there trembling, his nose pushed up against the wall. Mr.Barbauld entered the room breathing heavily. He lit the gas lamp and surveyed the mess on the floor. He bent down and scraped the debris into the flour sack and stood staring at it pensively. He opened the pantry door and stood motionless. Gus caught the scent of his rancid breath as he watched Barbauld reach up to retrieve the butcher’s knife from the top shelf. The door closed, and Gus lay listening as the footsteps slowly faded. He felt himself exhale softly in the dark, not realizing that he had been holding his breath. He waited until his breathing had settled, before pushing open the pantry door. He made his way swiftly back to the cellar; and out through the wooden hatch. Dawn was breaking as he tiptoed up the front steps of the house and gently dropped the shoe on the doorstep.

Shrouded in mist, the bay trees stood like solemn sentries either side of the door.

*******

Phoebe awoke to the sound of the wooden hatch opening. She jumped out of bed and ran to the kitchen. Gus was at the table, his head in his hands, his face pale and thin. He raised his head as he spoke. ‘I think it’s time we moved on. This house is no longer safe.’ He saw her eyes flash and then just as quickly dissolve into a distant and unreachable pain. ‘But I don’t understand Gus. We have the little ones to think of – and where would we go? To the river, with all the others?  That’s no place for us.’

‘There is a murderer at large Phoebe. We are no longer safe here – particularly while Barbauld remains upstairs.’ Phoebe lifted her eyes to meet his. They had wildness in them. ‘What does Mr. Barbauld have to do with the murders? He is a man devoted to nothing but his music. I will not hear a word said against him. Look at yourself Gus; you are losing your mind.’ Gus stared down at the table as he spoke.

‘Last night I went upstairs…’

Phoebe’s eyes widened. ‘Upstairs? But why Gus, what on earth were you thinking? And what if he had caught you? Gus snapped back at her. ‘Perhaps he would have killed me – who knows? And you…..you talk of him as if he were some sort of God. You are blinded by his fame.’ Jaq suddenly appeared by the kitchen door looking down at his feet. He spoke slowly. ‘Who is going to kill you, Daddy?’ Phoebe ran to him and wrapped her arms around him. ‘Don’t you listen to him Jaq. Come with me, I have some meat for your breakfast.’

Gus stood up abruptly. ‘And where did you get meat woman?’

Phoebe stared at him, her sadness mingling with fear and fury. ‘The little ones need the meat – they have to grow, Gus.’

Gus stood, throwing back his chair, ‘We can’t have meat down here woman; they will smell it upstairs. Are you mad? Get rid of it.’

*******

Police Inspector Edmund Reid stopped outside the house, for no reason other than he could no longer see his way in the dense fog. To his colleagues, Reid was considered an avuncular man yet his pointy canines jutted out slightly, giving him the look of something feral. Two years ago, at the height of the Whitechapel murders, press criticism of the police had been mounting, and Edmund Reid was perceived as the one man whose immense knowledge of London may help shed some light on these gruesome murders. The Inspector rubbed his hands together and stamped his feet. It was the coldest winter he could remember. The fog was getting thicker by the minute, hanging damp and muddy so he could barely see the gas lamps in the street. At that precise moment, something caught his eye on the steps of the house. He bent down and picked up the woman’s shoe, massaging the cold leather between his fingers. It was then he noticed the buckle

. Immediately, he raced down into the street, and blew three times on his whistle.

Four police officers, led by Reid, entered the house on Rosslyn Hill at 8.20am. They began by searching the upstairs rooms while Mr. Barbauld remained in the kitchen. An hour later, three of the police officers went to fetch pick axes. They stood in line, above the cellar floor, where the dreadful smell appeared to emanate. The moment the pick axes fell, the damp wooden ceiling exploded down onto the cellar floor in a hail of wood and dust. Gus instantly scampered towards the little wooden hatch that led to the sewer. He turned, and gazed up through the gaping hole in the ceiling to see the row of faces staring down at him. As the dust began to clear, Inspector Reid peered down into the cellar. ‘Bloody hell’ he bellowed. ‘Look at the size of those rats. There’s a plague of them down there.’ Phoebe ran to the little ones. She stood between them, part warrior, part shield. She ushered them towards the hatch. ‘Be quick dears – and run towards the river!’ Gus hesitated at the entrance to the sewer and turned to look back at the house. He barked at Phoebe ‘I told you not to bring meat into the house, this is all your doing.’ Phoebe turned, and snarled with her mouth open, baring her yellow teeth at him, before scurrying down the sewer towards an uncertain future.

The following morning, at 9am, Mr. Barbauld sat at his piano. The fog had cleared, and for the first time in weeks a late burst of winter sun cast watery shadows across the room. He smiled to himself as he began to sing, unaware of the overly large rat that slowly edged its way across the marble floor towards him.

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Mr Nutley’s Nightmares

In his nightmare he saw the sinking ship lurch before the bow dipped beneath the angry waves. The stern remained above the water for the last few seconds, and then plunged downwards. He reached down searching for his mother’s hand and the lifeboat pitched perilously as he lunged into the murky darkness. He could feel the oily seaweed entwine his fingers as he reached down into the icy waters one last time.

He screamed out into the empty night as he felt himself slipping. He snatched his arm from the water and stared down at the bloodied stump where his hand had once been.

Then nothing… only the roar of the laughing sea as it reached up to swallow him.

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Mr Nutley locked the bedroom door and sat at his dressing table staring at the cutthroat razor. His heart was racing.

A beam of sunlight swept the room as he rubbed his fingers slowly down the spine of the razor. He felt the cool surface of the ivory handle and sensed the hairs on the back of his neck rise as he recalled a moment from his past. He stared into the mirror and wondered what it felt like to die. The nightmares always gave him headaches. Dr Saud had prescribed Remeron a while back, but the effects were always the same. At first he had resisted the pills, but Dr Saud insisted that in time he would feel the benefits.

He shuffled towards the balcony and looked down over the lawns. He watched the gardener crouch low over the hedge as he gripped the silver rule in his hand. The sun shone on the metal as he took the secateurs from his back pocket and gently clipped at the hedge. The action was staged in one precise movement like a ballet.

Mr Nutley frowned as he recalled the garden the day he had moved in. There had been no sense of order, no light or space, merely a vast jungle which engulfed the house; keeping it captive from the outside world. He had slowly nursed it back to life, and planted the palm trees. These became the birthstone of the garden, allowing the sun to restore the earth and correct the balance. But it was the hedge he loved most. The smooth, comforting angles suggested rank and order. Late at night, he imagined the hedge reaching up beyond the palm trees, as if in homage to the dark skies above. Mr Nutley was a rich man, he had written five novels, all of which had sold millions. He had everything he needed, except for friends. He had been lonely ever since his wife Emily died. His only companion was an old black cat called Bozley. From the moment Bozley had sauntered up his lawn one Sunday afternoon, he had never left his side. Yet it never occurred to him to question why the cat had chosen him.

Each night Mr Nutley went to sleep, the nightmares came for him. The dark horses galloped into his sleep like a herd of demons. He suffered visions of sharp faces peering through the windows of his mind. He slumbered on a sea of threat and menace that at times made him tremble in his sleep. In the shadowy corners of the night, the demons crept up on him. They came from under the door frames, and squeezed between the polished oak floorboards, they kept on coming until he woke up. When he did, he lay there, breathless, with both hands clasped to his neck, half-dead, half-alive. Trapped between sleep and the balmy air of a new dawn.

He got up and rushed into the bathroom, clawing at the air in front of him. He splashed his face with water and then, hearing the voice behind him, he glanced up into the mirror, half-expecting to see the eyes of his demons staring back.

Mr. Nutley was 77-years-old and had enjoyed a charmed life. He desperately missed his wife, and no longer felt the urge to write. The future, he felt, held very little. That all changed when Bozley began to talk.

The voice was primeval. There was no discernible accent and the words resonated off the walls like thunder in the night. He sensed the bile rise in his stomach and was overwhelmed by a terrifying sickness. His body stiffened as he slowly turned to face the voice, his mouth fell open, and his arms flopped loose at his side. The prescient part of his mind saw Bozley before he knew he was seeing him. He did not want to believe what he already believed. He would rather believe he was still asleep, still trapped by the nightmares. Though in his heart, he knew the truth.

At first, the light was dim in the bedroom. He could make out the outline of the cat upright on the oak chair that stood at the side of the bed. Then, gradually, a spectral glow began to spread through the room. The light appeared to emanate from the cat and the eyes blazed with mesmerizing power.

Mr. Nutley stared at the cat. ‘Who are you?’

‘I have come to help cure your nightmares.’

Mr. Nutley rubbed his face and stared straight at the cat.

‘I’m talking to a talking cat.’

‘Why do you find that so difficult? Allow me to speak in your own tongue….

‘You gotta ditch the dough.’

‘What?’

‘Quit the cash. Get rid of the money.’

‘Are you out of your mind?’

‘You are lonely because you are full of self-pity. That is why you no longer feel able to write. The nightmares are of your own making. If you start writing again, your nightmares will disappear overnight…so to speak.’

‘I don’t want to write anymore.’

‘Then you will die a lonely man.’

Nutley manoeuvred himself around the cat and started to get dressed. ‘So be it.’ he shouted, pulling on his robe, ‘I have written five books and made a fortune from them.’

Bozley suddenly jumped from the chair and landed with a thump, close to Mr. Nutley’s feet.

‘Yes, you did – but you made the fortune for YOURSELF, and all it has done is make you unhappy.’

Mr Nutley took two paces back. He wanted to get as far away from the cat as possible. What if I ran, he thought. Would the damn thing follow me?

‘You need to give away your money. I will show you how. True happiness is never gained from money. You humans are so dim?’

‘For God’s sake. You are one crazy cat.’

‘You are the one with the crazy nightmares! Do you want me to write the book for you?’

Mr. Nutley snapped. ‘No thank you. I would rather you stop talking and allow me to carry on going mad on my own.’

‘Has it not occurred to you that I have just handed you the best story idea you will ever have?’

In the brief silence that followed, Nutley stared at the cat.

So there it was, the sudden realisation that he had dreamed up a book idea by talking to a cat. Each morning, straight after breakfast, Mr. Nutley could be found writing in his study. This time, he did not have to search for inspiration for the story. The story was there waiting. All he had to do was write it. So from 6am until dusk, he wrote. It was only on the seventh day he realised he had not had a nightmare since the day he started writing. During the day, Bozley never troubled Mr. Nutley. He amused himself by taunting the gardeners and jumping in and out of the hedge. In the evening, he joined him for dinner on the terrace at 7pm prompt. They talked over the book, and sometimes Bozley would suggest a twist or change here and there. Otherwise, he thought it best to leave the writing to him.

Eight weeks later, the book was complete, and he called it Mr Nutley’s Nightmares. It was to become a much loved and treasured fable read by millions of children all over the world, with the bulk of the revenues going to the children’s charity that Bozley had helped him set up. On the day of publication, Bozley had suggested they organise a party in the grounds of the house. Hundreds of children came from all over the city and Bozley watched as the author proudly handed out signed copies of his book. The children laughed and danced around his feet, and for the very first time in years, Mr. Nutley smiled.

That night, Mr Nutley slept soundly, freed at last of the fear of nightmares.  He never once woke up. In fact, he was still sleeping as Bozley crept out of the bedroom and slipped silently down the stairs to wait for the gardeners, and the sun began to dawn on a bright new day.

Later that afternoon, when there was still no sign of Mr Nutley, Bozley went to check on him. He opened the door and jumped up on to the bed. He stared down into the grey decaying face. There was no sign of movement, his eyes were closed. In one hand, he held a copy of his new book, his fingers still caught between the twisted pages. Bozley stared at the silent bedstead, and imagined, for a moment, that he saw the trace of a smile on Mr. Nutley’s face. He then pushed up the duvet with his paws so that it was close and comfortable around his neck. He was suddenly filled with a deep sadness. The time, he thought, had come.

Bozley closed the bedroom door and turned down the lamp in the hall. He crept gently down the stairs and out through the kitchen window. The grey light was waning fast and the garden already veiled in deepening dusk. He walked along the soft green lawn without once looking back. His work, he felt, was now complete.

 

 

 

Natural Born Killer

The wolves were chasing me through the dark woods, I could see their eyes glinting in the shadows behind me. They were making up ground; they were catching me. I found myself on the edge of the woods, the part where it meets the highway. I was about to race across the road to safety, when a huge truck bore down on me. I could see the driver’s face; he looked familiar. He was laughing, and held a smoking gun in his hand. I was caught in the headlights, in the middle of the road. All I could do was close my eyes and wait for the impact.

I awoke and shook myself out of the dream. Dawn was breaking, and the silence told me they were still sleeping. I crept down the hall and pushed open their bedroom door. I glanced around the room, the floor was littered with yesterday’s newspapers, half-empty teacups, the Highsmith novels, damp towels and discarded underwear.

I yawned and stared at the two of them. I thought of waking them, but they appeared tired and dishevelled in the pale morning light. He had one arm over her, as if protecting her from bad dreams or demons. There was a sense of quiet loss about them. I decided to let them sleep and made my way to the kitchen to eat an early breakfast. The dawn beckoned, and I figured a walk along the beach might do me good.

I thought of them as my parents, though I knew they were not. It was just more natural to think of them in that way. I owed them everything. I pictured them laying there, their heads together on the same pillow. There has been a period of sadness, as if they had suffered some sort of loss. I do not know the whole story, I have learned to respect their privacy. I just know when something is wrong. It is an instinct I was born with.

I strolled toward the beach, the sun was coming up, and I was thankful for the early warmth. The beach was desolate, just the crash of surf breaking on the shore. The sand felt soft and comforting between my toes. In the summer, there will be more time to explore the shore, or walk the woods, concealed from the eyes of the world under the towering trees.

I visualized them both, trapped in their bizarre world of books and newspapers. so many newspapers. They are as much a constant as the ringing of the phones, the hushed conversations – the hidden meanings and the dark looks. The endless tapping on the keyboard in the search of the truth, so often lost between the chattering arses and the digital lies. I pondered why they had to live this way. I am not sure they realise that I understand their world, but I do. I think and breathe their world; I watch television and listen to the radio. I know who Piers Morgan and Taylor Swift are. Every day I breathe in their smoke; I hear their laughter in the night, and I witness how swiftly their mood can change. In the end, I feel what they feel.

My life is decidedly different from theirs. I am content to be myself. I have very little left to prove, and no desire to better myself. Sometimes I sense I am destined to live a life of quiet desperation.

If you happen to read this, perhaps you would let them know that I love being with them. Tell them that I enjoy their music, although I have no choice in what I hear. Occasionally I try to sing along, as they dance together in the dark. They merely stare at me and laugh.

Recently, I have learned to lock, and unlock doors, and to read books.  I can also write, and today, for the first time, I Googled myself.  This, you must not tell them. Soon I plan to write a book.

You need to know I am a natural born killer. Killing is my life, and I am extremely effective at it. I have already killed twice today, and it’s only 2pm.

So be scared, be very scared, and bear this one thought in mind. There are very few around here, apart from me, that are privy to the truth.

I am watching you.

I am the cat.

I see all

Of Mice and Men

The storm raged for five days and five nights. The sun came out each morning, and by noon it was gone; replaced by a dark and turbulent sea that crashed relentlessly against the ship.

On the sixth day, the storm subsided. I ventured out on deck and watched a dove appear and circle the ship. I saw it swoop and soar, then fly west towards the setting sun. There was no sight of land and darkness once again engulfed the ship.

On the morning of the seventh day, Captain Murdoch appeared on deck to address his weary crew.

“The storm has led us into uncharted waters” He boomed. “We are alone on this ocean, and must gather all our strength in a bid to find our way home….”

The bolt of lightning came out of the heavens and hit the mainsail. I heard the mighty crack as it began to fall. I ran for cover and saw the Captain glance upwards as if in silent prayer. There was nothing he could do to save himself. His ship was doomed…..

******

The scream sent a shiver down my spine. It came from the shower; it was Janet Leigh in Psycho. I shut my book and ran down the hall.

The blonde spoke in gasps, her voice, punctuated by short, sharp screams.

‘A mouse…. The cat’s got a mouse. She’s under the bed… Get it OUT!’

I peered under the bed. I saw the yellow eyes squinting back at me in the dark. The mouse was gripped tightly in her jaws. I reached slowly for the handle of my gun. I took aim and gently squeezed the trigger. The water hit her right between the eyes and she shot out the other side of the bed. The mouse lay on its side, motionless.

I reached under the bed and gently picked up the mouse, and placed it in the nearest shoe box, which happened to be Jimmy Choo.

‘Have you got it?’ She shouted, stepping out of the shower.

‘Yes, I’ve put it in a box.’

‘What box?’

‘Oh, I don’t know, just some old box.’

‘Is it dead?’

;I’m not sure. It’s not moving. I think I’ll take it to the vet.’

‘Don’t be so ridiculous, just throw it out please and close all the windows.’

I gently stroked the mouse. There was no movement, just the cold stare of death. I went to the kitchen and took a small chunk of cheese from the fridge and put it in the shoe box. I closed the lid and hid the box in the hall cupboard.

The blonde walked into the lounge, pulling a black silk robe around her. ‘That damn cat! Why can’t it kill its prey somewhere else? Is that the book you bought this morning?’ She asked, placing a small vase of Peace roses on the black gloss table.

‘Yes, it’s a novel about a family lost at sea. It’s a fable.’

‘I love fables. I remember reading The Little Prince. I didn’t like the fox though, it scared me.’

The phone rang, and she stared at me, ‘I’m so fed up with all this intrusion.’

‘Let it ring.’ I said.

‘But it might be your mum, or your brothers.’

‘It isn’t. Let’s go to bed please.’

********

That night, I dreamed I was drowning in a shark infested sea of dark chocolate. My mother was rowing towards me in a small boat, but she was getting nowhere, and was tiring fast. The blonde eventually appeared in a Sea Rescue helicopter, and winched us both to safety. The sharks, on this occasion, were left hungry.

Early the next morning, I crept downstairs and opened the hall cupboard. I took out the shoe box and walked out onto the patio, just as the sun was beginning to rise over the woods.

I carefully opened the shoe box and peered inside. The mouse looked up, as if to question me. The cheese was gone, and the box was littered with droppings. I smiled to myself and gently turned the box on its side and let the mouse run free. I watched it scamper towards the opening to the woods. For a moment, I thought I saw it stop, and look back, before disappearing into the long grass. Even mice, I thought, deserve another chance.

The blonde breezed into the lounge. ‘Do you want some eggs, or your Greek yogurt?’

I smiled at her, and drew her close to me.

‘Be honest with me’ she said. ‘Did you really throw that dead mouse out last night?’

‘No. I didn’t.’

‘Oh God, don’t say it’s still under the bed.’

‘It wasn’t dead. I let it out this morning, into the woods.’

‘How come it survived, what on earth did you do to it?’

‘Its a little miracle. It survived, that’s all you need to know.’

I stood and stared at her, and immediately suffered a vision of the future. ‘You do realise don’t you’ I said. ‘One day you may have to deal with all this on your own?’

She thought for a second before replying. ‘Yes, perhaps I will, but not today Tony. My Grandmother always told me; that for every demon, there are a thousand angels.’

I opened the patio windows and stepped outside. I could detect a slight chill in the air. I looked out over the woods and thought about Robert Forester. I wondered how he was coping with the loss of his wife, and hoped he wasn’t alone. There is no rhyme or reason to the way people react to bad news. I suddenly felt the urge to see him, to explain how I misjudged him.

I lit a cigarette and watched the grey wisp of smoke billow, and then disappear into the crisp morning air.

The mouse who lived to tell the tale…

 

Rear Window 2 – The Sobbing Man

I am alone in the dark, running through the woods. The trees appear to close in, as if to stop me reaching the house. I am holding something tightly in my hand as I run. I can hear far away voices. I am in the night, engulfed by the endless, soothing dark of the woods. Somewhere in the distance, I hear the sound of a car driving down the empty country road. I listen to the air rushing in and out of my nostrils.

I stop at the entrance to the driveway. I can see the car. I approach slowly and realise I have a screwdriver in my hand. I need to open the trunk of the Volvo. I have to see for myself.

Then I hear the voice…….

“Tony, please wake up!”

I open my eyes, and The Blonde is staring down at me. Her face drowned in fear.

“You were breathing like a madman. What were you dreaming about?”

I sat up in bed, and stroked her worried face. “I was running I think. Through the woods, that’s all. Is the cat back?”

“No. I’ve been out along the path, as far as the woods, shouting for her. It’s just not like her to be gone so long.”

I jumped out of bed and into my jeans. “I’ll go out. I think I know where she is.”

The Blonde opened the blinds, and light streamed into the room. “I’m coming with you.”

I held her face between my hands. “No. You are not. I want you to stay here in case she comes back.” She looked as if she was about to cry.

I caught sight of my reflection in the hall mirror, and saw Anthony Perkins in Psycho.

As I followed the path, a reef of clouds and lightning raced across the skies. I should have run to take shelter from the approaching downpour, but The Blonde’s words were beginning to sink in. My hands were shaking. I tried to speed up, but I was consumed by fear and walked with leaden feet, chased by the rain. I took refuge under a tree, trying to rationalise my dream. A clap of thunder roared close by, and I felt the ground shake under my feet. I began to run towards the house with only one thought in my mind: Volvo Man.

By the time I reached the entrance to the driveway, I was drenched to the bone. I stopped dead in my tracks. The Volvo was gone. A police car, its engine still running, sat in its place.

As I opened the front door – The Blonde came rushing to greet me.

“Have you seen this story all over the front page of the newspaper today?”

“Yes, a lot of fuss over a single man enjoying himself. It’s a pity they don’t run a story about all the money he gives to children’s charities instead.”

“Not that one, the local paper. It’s HIM, look, the one you have been spying on; Volvo Man. Except that’s not his name. It’s Robert Forester. He’s an architect. His wife died two days ago in a car accident on Elmar Bridge. They only married a year ago, it’s so sad.”

I grabbed the paper and read:

29 year old Elaine Forester died instantly on Monday night when she lost control of her car in high winds on Elmar Bridge. Husband Robert, 32, was being comforted by family and friends last night after police were called to the family home following reports of a disturbance. According to a neighbour; Mr Forester was said to be ‘devastated’ by the tragic loss, and had to be restrained after trying to empty his dead wife’s clothes and belongings into the boot of his car. “He didn’t know what to do. It was as if he wanted to hold onto everything that was hers. He just stood there sobbing; it was all very sad to witness.”    

I walked into the lounge, lit a cigarette, and looked out towards the woods. The rain was starting to subside and a rainbow curled across the high trees. It appeared to vanish somewhere over the house where Forester lived. I glanced at my binoculars and felt the urge to use them, as if by doing so would somehow make the truth a little clearer.

The Blonde came up behind me and took my hand. Her face shimmered in the morning light. “Do you want some lunch, or a drink?”

“A drink would be better.”

My mobile began to ring.

“Hi Mum. Yes we have. Look, I wouldn’t worry. It will all blow over soon I’m sure. Yes, I know, I got caught up in it myself. I’ll call you back a little later OK? Bye Mum. I love you too.”

The Blonde placed the drinks on the black gloss table. “Who was that on the phone?”

“Mum.”

“Is she worried about the…….”

“The storms yes. She’s got the same there. Storms. I told her it will blow over soon.”

As I reached for my drink, I heard a faint scratching sound behind me. We both turned quickly. The cat stared back through the patio windows. Her wet face pushed hard against the window pane, her eyes pleading.

Some things are not always what they seem.

 

E.T comes home

 

Rear Window

I could see him standing at the table with a knife in his hand; he had rubber gloves on and was cutting something. He appeared uneasy as he went about his work.

“Who are on earth are you spying on now?”

I turned quickly, and the cord of the binoculars tightened round my neck like a noose.

“God! Do you have to creep up on me like that?”

The Blonde stood in front of me, looking out of the window. “You’re turning into a peeping Tony. Why are you behaving like a stalker?  Haven’t we had enough stalkers in the family lately?

“Are you referring to my mother?”

“You know exactly who I mean.”

“I’m not stalking; I was watching the cat, to see if I could find out where she goes at night. Then I saw this guy in his kitchen cutting up something on the table.”

“Which guy?

“You know – the guy opposite with the Volvo, the one with the really annoying walk.”

The blonde shrugged her shoulders and started laying the table with a clatter of cutlery. She stopped suddenly. “So what exactly is he cutting up?”

“I can’t… quite… see….”

I lit a cigarette and moved closer to the window and adjusted the zoom. “Wait! It looks like some kind of meat, and he’s putting the chopped-up pieces into a……..into a bin bag.”

The Blonde made a puffing sound with her cheeks. “I’ve made you a steak pie for dinner is that OK?”

“I’m not sure I fancy meat tonight.”

She came up behind me and put her hands on my shoulders and whispered in my ear. “How long has the cat been gone?”

“About two hours. I watched her go along that path and then turn left, towards his house. Then I lost sight of her.”

The Blonde lit two vanilla candles and placed them on the table. “How can you see out of those things? Come and have a drink and stop worrying about the cat.”

“They are infrared. I think I’ll go out and see if I can find her.”

“Oh for goodness sake. Last week you wanted to get rid of the cat. Now you are behaving as if you’ve lost the love of your life. Do you think she’s been kidnapped, or catnapped? Or do you just want to spy on Volvo-man?”

I stood, with one hand on the door. Maybe The Blonde was right. I was overreacting. Things aren’t always what they seem. Then again, what if something had happened to her?

“I’ll just go and check. I won’t be long.”

As I closed the door, I heard The Blond mutter something under her breath as she uncorked a bottle of Prosecco.

Night was falling quickly, with visible speed, like a black sea creeping over the earth. I followed the path the cat had taken and then turned left towards his house. I thought of calling her name. I even looked for blood on the path, but it was too dark to see.  As I reached his house, he was still in the kitchen. A square of light showed at the back of the house, and now and again his figure crossed the light.

The Volvo stood in the driveway, and I could hear the faint ticking as the engine cooled. The darkness was thickening. Maybe she had been scared by something and was hiding under the car. I moved around the square of light thrown from his rear window. Just then I heard a noise behind me. As I turned, the kitchen door opened, and steps sounded on the wooden porch. Volvo-man’s steps. He was carrying the black plastic bag. He was struggling with the weight of it. He still had gloves on, and I could see the sweat glistening on his brow.

I ducked down below the bonnet of the car as he came closer. He looked around furtively, and opened the trunk and heaved the bag into it. He locked the car and turned back towards the house. Then he stopped dead in his tracks, and I could hear his breathing coming in short bursts. He looked back at the car, as if he had lost something. He lifted his eyes as if he was looking directly at me. He stood motionless, his lips parted as if about to speak. I crouched lower, one foot advanced for a step I dare not take.

A pair of headlights came slowly from the right along the road. He turned quickly, climbed the steps to his kitchen and closed the door. I reached the pathway in two huge leaps and made my way back home.

As I walked into the lounge, The Blonde looked up from her book, her eyes searching me. “Well…..did you find her?”

I lit a cigarette, opened the back doors and walked out onto the patio. “No, I didn’t.”

She came up behind me and put her arms around my waist. “We’ll probably get a ransom note in the morning. I’m kidding! She’ll be home soon, I’m sure she will.”

I looked over towards the dark woods; I couldn’t help but wonder, what might be lying in the trunk of that Volvo.

I turned to The Blonde and stroked her face. “What are you reading?” I asked.

“The Shining.” she said, her eyes twinkling under the moonlit sky.